Sweetheart

I lay down under the starless night,
and my eyes closed to a dream....
your smile - in the darkness made light,
so far, yet so close you seem.

the velvety feel of your hair,
touchin the sides of my face...
come to me - my angel so fair
for without you my life i cannot brace

your eyes are my light,
makin me feel totally alive
for you the whole world i fight,
for its only for you i strive

my darling, my life
don't wander so far away,
the distance cuts me like a knife
bleeding for you, dead i lay.
my darling, my life
don't wander so far away,

Memory Remains

lookin back at the life that past,
a truckload of joy and a heartload of pain.
how long i know not what will last,
I know not - what i lost or gain.

once a smile made my day,
wishin it would last forever...
and now totally broken i lay,
what i was - now i can be never.

blowin across the seas,
are the winds of change.....
travel i alone and hurt,
learnin the ways of the world so strange...

the pain i can bear no more,
the memories in my heart remain
heart broke - the mind roar,
this memories to me are a chain
the memories remain.

Death - here i come

holding you hand,
i walked down the street....
wish i could run to a far off land,
and hope never again our paths would meet.

wait i have,
long enough for a golden dawn
but days have come
and days have gone...

all i have ever wanted,
to be free to fly,
but now ridden wit pain and deceit,
in my grave i want to lie.

gone are those days,
the grass in the meadow was green.
now, come have the days
to cry no one's shoulder i lean.

away i wanna go
away into the sunset.
away i wanna go,
fade into the sunset ......

A sadist's song

i have a dream,
which would make you scream.

in pain, in anger
ur life in danger.......

turn you upside down,
and rip and tear off your gown.
whip your uncovered flesh
leavin' you a total mess

you'll have a bloody breast,...
your nipple gleamin' like a crest.
you try, but u can't flee
as i look upon you in glee !!!

in pain, in anger
ur life in danger.......

as you lie so helpless,
i feel like god there to bless....
as i enter into the deep softness.
stifling it with my hardness

seeing you shriek,
seeing you cry......
me the manic freak...
peaceful i lie

there you stay still
in pain, in anger
ur life in danger.......

On the lane of life ....

i walked a mile in the rain,
in the cold and chillin my soul

drops of rain,
dousing me with pain...
drops of rain,
killin' me on the lane.

life's a big fuck,
turned me a freakin whore
is it my luck,
or is it just a lore.... ??

it all began when i fell in love,
it was all bliss...
and my life dove,
cos' it was poison ivy kiss...

drops of rain,
dousing me with pain...
drops of rain,
killin' me on the lane.

the lane of life....
my life of strife......
the lane of life....
my life of strife......

Smoke an the Water

The kiss of smoke

Water

Heart Calling

trippin' on the road of life,
loads of fun an pangs of pain..
seems to cut like a knife...
all else but you stand to gain.

heaven once seemed so bliss,
made you want to reach an touch it..
all you ever wanted was your sweetheart's kiss,
flames of passions were once lit.

time passed on, stoppin for you or no one,
now, hell seems to be so close
al things said an done,
the moment is gone, but not the pain goes.

trippin' on the road of life,
loads of fun an pangs of pain..
seems to cut like a knife...
all else but you stand to gain.

the game of life

standing nude in the cold,
the body knowing pain no more..
harder came the winds, piercing the soul so bold,
a voice inside said ... its hurts no more no more.

demonic the world is,
satanic their desires and sways,
sprouting feelings and wounding hearts,
cos change is constant in the world always....